retiredby19's Profile

Yeah... I think it's time for a change. Once again... A change in me, and a change in life. Funny thing, I always have a lot to say when I write these little profile intros. I don't see a reason to write a new one every other month or so except to let others know who I am and where I'm going in life. I think there is a problem with the world today. I see a lot of violence, sex, lies, and love of money. If I didn't look a certain way or if I don't act a certain way... Should I be recognized for my works if my views and opinions don't flow with yours? If I were to look gangster, does that mean I am one or am i just posing? Or does it mean that I just like the look? If I were to act arrogant and hard, does that mean I'm an asshole or does it mean I know what I'm talking about and I don't take no for an answer? Does it mean that I'm ambitious or am I crazy for have dreams and goals? When violence is an answer, does it mean I have to chose to act upon anger? Or can I just walk away and not get reprimanded for being a better person? Or do I just get called a coward, and weak? When I dress up and wear suits, does that mean I'm professional or does it mean I'm trying to impress someone? What if I really DID own a business, would you ever know? If I carried a knife on my left, and a 9 on my right, does it make me a killer? or a Protector? When I shoot to kill, and have no remorse, does it mean I'm cold-hearted, or does it mean that man deserve to die? When I say no to drugs, does that mean I'm straight-edged or is it because my friends died of it? When I hit on a female, does it mean that I'm trying to get into her pants, or is it out of appreciation of her beauty? Just because a female dances with other guys, does that make her a slut? Or is she just trying to have fun? When a girl has sex with other guys and various guys, does that make her a whore? If so, then why aren't GUYS called whores when they sleep around? When a guy beats his wife, and turns around and tells her he loves her... Does she stay with him because of LOVE... or MONEY?... Which is more important...? Love or Money? Honestly asking yourself that, and answering that... How many females and how many males really DO what they are THINKING? If you had 10 million dollars or the love of your life... which would you REALLY take? Truth be told, you can't LIVE without money... But neither will that void be filled if you don't have Love.

I think the media got things twisted, and I think people got ME twisted. I ain't the same guy I once was. I am not a perfect guy. So don't think I am. Yes, I come off as being arrogant, but maybe you should check yourself, the last time you made fun of a retarded kid, or someone you thought you was better than. I'm sure you remember that. Envision that moment, and think about it, because I may SOUND like I'm arrogant, but maybe it's because I have confidence of who I am, and I don't take NO as an answer. Everyone has TWO sides. But not everyone is TWO FACED. I HAVE to have more than one side. I have no choice. I am a SOLDIER. I carry a knife in one hand and a 9 in the other. OR I carry a semi-automatic rifle and carry out my duties. To protect and to serve. Quit acting like you know me and what I do and what I stand for. Before you step in my shoes and go to war and seen what that truely is rather than a tourist attraction, then come and step up to me. When your finger is on the trigger about to squeeze and you see on the other end is a family full of kids, and you have to make a decision, then you will fully understand the meaning... WAR... When someone you once knew a week ago... Passes away, and dies because of a terrorist act... You will know why I do my job. When you actually LOOK in the face of a 3 year old, and having him / her telling you thank you for what you do mister. And seeing his / her world a little bit better, you will fully understand WHY we are there, and why I signed my name on the dotted line.

I am not perfect, so don't presume I am. I make mistakes like everyone else in this world. When you come at me sideways when I do one little thing wrong, remember to look at yourself and see where you are in the equation. Am I the problem or is it really you. Don't blame me for your mistakes. Grow up and accept responsibility for your actions. Stop being so fake. If you ain't who you really are or if your pictures don't match who you are, then be a real adult and delete those pictures and stop posing that is you. Lies will only dig you deeper in a hole. As for me, I have nothing to hide. A girlfriend? I may want one, but I definitely don't NEED one. When I can find a girl that is truely REAL and down to earth. I'll let you know.

I don't want to put my whole life story online for everyone to read and hate, so if anything on here makes sense to you and intrigues you... Maybe we should talk. Maybe we'll find some common ground within each other. Friendships are always welcome. At the end of the day though... Your opinions really don't matter to me. I have ONE judge, and you definitely don't fit the description. I am a MAN so therefore, I accept responsibility for my actions... So when that day comes, I will. But my judge is the man upstairs, not you. So if you got something to say, sure, you are entitled for your opinion, but don't expect me to give a shit about you say about me.

On a side note, I'm not what I seem. Hit me up, you might be suprised. =)